Vomit...in my mind not my hair

As the first year of my masters program is coming to an end in a little over a month, I started to look at the pieces I want to focus on for my vocal jury...and I want to vomit. For the first time in my college experience, I don't want to sing a song not because of memory issues or simply not liking the song, but because I am worried that my voice will not handle the song okay...all of my songs. I seem to have so many flaws all I think about when I perform is "am I centered? is this going to come out okay?" when I use to just sing.::vomit::

In other news, my art song class (or rather some of it to be fair) makes me also want to vomit. It is so sad, I am in a masters program and people don't bring their music, don't practice, check their phone messages when someone is singing, and we don't create a collaboration. It is a strange time of year, but COME ON PEOPLE! STEP IT UP A BIT! ::vomit::

I had some great conversations with people outside of Boston to discuss an issue that was brought up earlier this week and how it has made me think about life. I just want to thank you for listening and let you know that it has really helped my emotionally scrambled state.